COLORADO CITY, Ariz. -- A woman who escaped a life of polygamy in Colorado City wants answers about her brother's death.

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Kathy Jo Nicholson said to find those answers she feels like she has to search the community and people that she worked so hard to break free from.

Nicholson said she may never find truth in Colorado City. Beyond the dirt roads and privacy walls are tightly-kept secrets -- religious practices well guarded from outsiders.

But Kathy Jo has not always been an outsider.

"Warren Jeffs was the headmaster principal at Alta Academy for all the years I went there and I had a relationship with him in the sense that I saw him probably 365 days a year for many years," she said.

Warren Jeffs, the self proclaimed prophet, demanded unquestioning obedience from his FLDS followers. And he usually got it.

"He did humiliating things like you know we wore dresses and he would have us get up on our desks and flex our muscles,” Nicholson said. “He was just very good at gaining control in that way."

Nicholson said she rebelled against the strict FLDS ways and eventually escaped. But has never been able to completely severe the ties.

"After my brother died, I came back to Colorado City and started asking questions," she said.

He died in 2004 in the mountains just beyond Colorado City. Nicholson’s younger brother, John, was rappelling at a place called The Edge of the World.

Police reports show his rappel rope was too short, which caused the fall. And the death certificate indicates he died from the fall.

"He was an expert rapeller and rock climber," Nicholson said.

But Nicholson said she believes her brother's death was not an accident. He recently claimed Jeffs had abused him as a young boy.

"The file has been sealed and we aren't having any cooperation from the police," Nicholson said.

She said her quest for answers forces her to question the religious sect she once ran from. In a sense seeking truth from those whose belief system she disdains.

"I think it's wrong,” she said. “I think it's immoral. I think it's illegal."

5 investigates spoke with the police agency that investigated the death and contacted the Utah Attorney General's Office.

Both agencies said they have no new evidence indicating this case should be reopened.